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Let's Get Kinky (Sober)
I would bet the most common text sent via dating apps/sites is "What you into?".
I know many of my friends would cut and paste the answer from their notes app.
Or, if you splurged for Grindr-X you could save recurring phrases (how convenient!).
I never knew how to answer that question, to be hon...
Dec 28, 2024
3 Ways to Take Control of Cravings (and your life) NOW
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According to theĀ Journal of Sex Research, men think about sex 19 times per day.
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For men trying to get sober from crystal meth, this equates to 19 cravings per day.
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That's because when meth is paired with sex, the two are neurologically fused.
This is why meth addiction treatment is u...
Dec 28, 2024
The Trifecta: Meth, Sex, and HIV
Meth. Sex. HIV.
You can't talk about one without the other.
Problem is, none of them are being talked about (enough).
When will we, the Queer Community, speak up?
When will we acknowledge the crystal meth epidemic?
An epidemic that is joked about, degraded, and ostrasticized.
An epidemic that is...
Dec 28, 2024
Doing the Hard Stuff in Recovery
Do you know Tina (crystal meth)?
Then you must also know Gina (Gamma Hydroxybutyrate or GHB).
Those girls are thick as thieves.
Gina is a downer to counteract the upper of Tina.
Maybe like taking an Adderall and Xanax together?
I didn't take Gina for the downer. I took her because of the love po...
Dec 28, 2024
The Meth-y Things We Do
Hot meth express. All aboard.
That was a big joke of mine during active addiction.
Like most drug-induced humor, it was not really funny.
The effects of meth on my brain convinced me that I loved the chaos of my life in active addiction. Each day was more unpredictable than the last.
It also con...
Dec 28, 2024
5 Steps to Understanding Willpower
Just because I've been in recovery from meth for six years does not mean I have more willpower than you.
It means I set up my environment to make decision-making easier.
You aren't weak.
You aren't "doing it wrong".
You aren't forever an addict.
I want you to stop wishing for more willpower and ...
by Dr. Dallas Bragg ā€”
Dec 28, 2024
addiction recovery
strong will
Employment Post-Addiction
Three weeks after quitting crystal meth cold turkey. Three weeks after a year of nearly daily injections. Three weeks into an unknown and overwhelming existence.
No car.
No home.
No money.
I had been hired as a server at a taco joint the day my kids picked me up from jail. The inspiration to get...
Dec 28, 2024
addiction recovery
Even DoorDash Is a Trigger
Some days it feels like you'll never be able to escape reminders of crystal meth use. That's because, as gay men, we have slutted it up everywhere within a 50-mile radius of our home.
I wonder if that's how people with alcohol use disorder feel on a daily basis. There are beer ads on highway bil...
Dec 28, 2024
Crystal Meth: The Next AIDS Crisis
The following contains a personal story, this week's podcast, and a supplementary study guide for the episode.
I stood surveying the bedroom setup:
My wooden box with a glass top sat on the bed, equipped with clean pipe, fresh cloth, and a straw scoop. The laptop/ TV showed a YouTube EDM playli...
Dec 27, 2024
What You Did Is Not Who You Are
Isn't it funny how numbers can earmark memorable events? I remember noticing "4:39" glowing red on my dashboard. I glanced at the time right before I turned my car off one frigid January evening.
I had to be in the office by 9:00 am.
My buddy Harris (name changed) and I had tried all night to fi...
Dec 27, 2024
Podcasts and Books and Research!
Without Grindr, Sniffies, and Porn, what would I do with my extra time?
Have you ever tried to calculate how many hours you've spent of your energy and time staring at your phone/laptop with absolutely zero benefit to show for it?
I estimated my own investment the other week and became nauseous.
...
Dec 27, 2024
The Point of No Return
A little round face caught in my peripheral vyed for my attention. My intent was to keep my head down and avert my eyes from everyone in the waiting room. I looked up from my shoes to the brown toddler in the next chair.
She was on the lap of someone I assumed was her mother. The lady shouted i...
Dec 27, 2024