My first psychedelic experience happened in the "Goddess" room of a real-life Goddess.
I had been abstinent from meth for almost two years and about 8 months into my spiritual journey (for the full story of how I began that journey, tune into Episode 1:2 Dallas's Story).
The "sitter" or "guide"...
What a miserable existence. Feeling unhappy and constantly triggered for your entire life.
That was my reality.
I can remember feeling sad as a boy into my early adulthood. I mean, the pictures prove it:
I always believed as soon as I had "that", life would feel happy. "That" was never eno...
Season 2 is underway! I'm so thrilled to have THE chemsex expert back on the show, Dr. David Fawcett. David is the author of Lust, Men, and Meth: A Gay Man's Guide to Sex and Recovery.
(If you don't have the book yet, order it now)
This week, we are talking all things harm reduction.
Harm red...
What was the one thing that kept me actively using Meth?
Without a doubt, it was Fear Of Missing Out (FOMO).
The nuance that makes the Tina world different than other stubstances, is that we as gay men know that at ANYtime and ANYwhere there will be a chemsex parTy.
It is like a child who live...
Welcome to SEASON 2!
I'm launching this season with another solo pod. I hope you enjoy and I pray that you'll share it with anyone out there struggling with living meth-free.
The Meth-Free Blueprint: Seven Key Practices for the First 90 Days
1. Attend 90 12-step meetings in 90 days.
There i...
After receiving my number from the front desk, I found a seat in the crowd.
The atrium was packed, but I managed to find a solo chair.
Chatter echoed across the A-frame ceilings, occasionally interrupted by the shrieks from unruly children.
Their mothers yelling commands in vain.
Recognizing ...
Today, we're diving deep into something that many of us have struggled with throughout our lives long before crystal entered the picture - boundaries.
Not just what they are but how they become the foundation of a life worth staying present for.
"What you into?"
Dear lord, how many times have...
Ever listen to the labels we give ourselves?
"I'm a morning person."
"I'm not a reader."
"I'm just not a foodie."
When did we decide what we are?
At what point did we accept our role in life?
I used to say that I did not like to camp.
Years later, after going camping a few times, I realize...
5:30am comes early when you are catching the public bus.
Homeless and on my way to the courthouse to pee in a cup, then to treatment.
Once settled in my seat, I would close my eyes and lean my head back.
This would be my hour of escape into the future while we made our way to the City of Charl...
I loved shoplifting.
Toward the end of meth use, stealing was the only high I enjoyed.
The euphoria sweeping my body as the Target cart crossed the threshold was invigorating.
The adrenaline rush from getting out with a pile of goods tided me over until we could score.
And the only way to sco...
Season 1 is over, y'all!
I'm rounding out the season with a solo pod:
My overall insights for how to stop using crystal meth for men who have sex with men.
This is not all-inclusive, but, in my opinion, the most important insight for setting yourself free and embodying your highest self.
When w...
My father was a Marine Corps Drill Instructor.
Many mornings, he would burst into our bedroom with thunderous commands of "Revely! Revely!"
My brother and I, startled and disheveled, would bound from our bunk bed and stand at attention.
All I can remember is the trembling fear of the deep and...
