What was the one thing that kept me actively using Meth?  Without a doubt, it was Fear Of Missing Out (FOMO). The nuance that makes the Tina world different than other stubstances, is that we as gay men know that at ANYtime and ANYwhere there will be a chemsex parTy.  It is like a child who live...

I loved shoplifting.  Toward the end of meth use, stealing was the only high I enjoyed. The euphoria sweeping my body as the Target cart crossed the threshold was invigorating.  The adrenaline rush from getting out with a pile of goods tided me over until we could score.  And the only way to sco...

Season 1 is over, y'all! I'm rounding out the season with a solo pod: My overall insights for how to stop using crystal meth for men who have sex with men.  This is not all-inclusive, but, in my opinion, the most important insight for setting yourself free and embodying your highest self. When w...

Noticing my hand visibly trembling, I gripped my pen and squeezed. I could feel my chest pounding, too. A bead of sweat plingo-ed down my spine. Using my periphery, I strained to catch any sign that the person next to me at the boardroom table noticed my body language. I adjusted my position in t...

When it comes to chemsex recovery, I honestly don't prefer the word "cycle". But, similar to "God", using a broadly accepted term maximizes message clarity. I prefer Spiral (not downward, but upward). When I think about my recovery journey, the repeated patterns I experienced (including relapse) ...